It has been a very long time since I put my thoughts on this page. Long overdue actually. Part of the issue has been life. Life happened, is happening, and will happen. To stop and express thoughts and feelings during the Life Happenings is a conscience choice that must be acted upon. I, on the other hand, procrastinated until the moment passed and left me holding on to empty bag of unknowns, uncertainties, and unresolved expressions.
So, I take this moment to put aside my laziness and drop a quick note or two onto this fine media….to share, with you, how life has happened since my last posting.
Since leaving my state job, going back to the big corporate life, I have road a roller coaster of events that have altered my life. Most extreme of which was the passing of my Mom. Watching a loving and caring woman succumb to the ravages of cancer…never complaining about the pain and misery she was suffering…has left a sore that I cannot seem to heal. That spot where you feel the pain, yet don’t have a remedy at hand. At times it festers to a point of creating tears from hurt, and at times it just aches enough to remind you that it is still there, yet I can still manage through the day.
I will confess that there has been directed moments where I have tried to numb the pains with adult-fashionable beverages in excess. But, we both know that is not a remedy for any pain. If anything, it only leaves the physical body in discord and fills the mind with regret. The sore still remains. Life still happens.
Trying to take my focus off of the sore is also just a temporary fix. Even if I fill my head and heart with the anguish of the world events of murder, mayhem, and vile actions purported on one another, that is only a fleeting burn that dissipates after the news is turned off. Plus, only adds to the disdain I have for people who are filled with evil. Love is smothered and I become numb.
Life still happens. I still walk amongst it, daily having to navigate the ups and downs, turns and curves of my existence. It’s true that you cannot just put your head in the sand and pretend that you are not there. I have tried and it hasn’t resolved anything. The only resolve is facing it all head on. Walking into the storms and taking action on each segment of life as it happens.
As much as it can hurt at times, facing the enemy is more effective in the long run. Life will keep happening, but keeping a firm grasp on how much it can become a sore will most certainly give you the upper hand. I wasn’t prepared for some of life’s big hits on me and have suffered more than I should have, had I taken a more controlling roll in them when they occurred. So, as with anything….you live and learn!
Not to sound cliché and sappy, but love does conquer all. Filling your heart with love will have a greater impact on your personal resolve to survive the storms of life’s happenings. Thus, when faced with devastation, loss, pain, hurt, and emptiness….you will at least have a warmth that comforts and calms you through it all.
Be strong, my friends, and be in love! Love you, love them, love life…good and bad. But, above all…..LOVE!